The first 78 Steps To Remission

I am changing. The process will never be complete, because it is not something with an end goal. I have befriended my body. I sing, and dance, and pray.

1. Watch the sunrise

2. Accept

3. Refuse (the label/diagnosis)

4. Find silence (internally)

5. Eat (food, not poison)

6. Find the ground state

7. Find solitude

8. Find friends

9. Rest

10. Rest more

11. Regulate the nervous system

12. Take stock of the present (see #1)

13. Go offline

14. make art

15. Dance

16. Read novels

17. Get angry

18. release anger

19. Blame your parents

20. Blame the medical establishment

21. Blame big pharma

22. Blame agri-business

23. Blame God

24. Get embodied

25. Practice Meditation

26. Pickup Taijiquan and Qigong

27. Pick up Yoga

28. Learn to cook (everything from scratch)

29. Live away from the city

30. Take probiotics (as many as possible)

31. Swim in lakes, rivers, oceans

32. Stop drinking

33. Stop coffee

34. Stop smoking

35. Stop sugar

36. Stop TV

37. Stop social media (for a while)

38. Stop meds (gradually)

39. Examine fundamental thoughts (ongoing)

40. Learn about ~t r a u m a~

41. Learn about positive psychology

42. Take up walking as a practice

43. Take up journaling as a practice

44. Sleep (more, better)

45. Learn from your dreams

46. Get help from healers (who might be MDs, but probably are not)

47. Pray

48. Drop out (of school, of work)

49. Reduce stress to near zero (ongoing)

50. Eat fermented foods

51. Get lots of sun+air

52. Fast (intermittently, and for longer periods)

53. Fall in love

54. Meet your mentors

55. Get projected upon ('you should do X! I think it will help you.')

56. Practice listening to your heart

57. Recognize when you're wrong

58. Listen to elders.

59. Take everything as an opportunity for growth

60. Dis-identify from the body (it is not I)

61. Get to know your cells (sing to them)

62. Tremor (release tension from your animal body)

63. Pendiculate

64. Sing to your heart

65. Gradually befriend the body as it is (without //trying// to change it by force)

66. Get inspired (by ancient wisdom, by your contemporaries, by a tree, by other cultures, by your self)

67. Uncompromisingly make self-healing the only priority

68. Relinquish attachment to outcome (I may never "get better")

69. Learn about orthorexia nervosa

70. Draw like your child self did.

71. Slay your ego

72. Accept help

73. Forgive your parents

74. Take in old ideas about human potential (read old books)

75. Take in new ideas about human potential (read new books)

76. Cultivate awe

77. Look back with gratitude on the journey so far

78. Watch the sunset.

//

A long winding path, tremulously lit.
Traveler, there is no road.

I am crossing time
each of my selves
conceived otherwise
leap through one another in memory.

The road is made as you go
But tell me more about this path.
It is ever present, shifting
Not to accommodate,
Though it remains navigable.
Divergences cease to exist
Once a decision has been made
The path is only travelled once
Though it may come back around.

Each day along the path brings new learning
The feeling of the path changes
Come now, you're already on your way
The path is shared by all, and differs for each.

(from my book, page 206)

I am changing. The process will never be complete, because it is not something with an end goal. I have befriended my body. I sing, and dance, and pray.