What if you stopped trying to get better?

Your body is not a home improvement project. Healing is not an end goal but a process, and you have done nothing wrong by needing rest.

If you are debilitated by chronic pain, bleeding, fatigue, migraines, nausea, fever, or other disjointed and inexplicable symptoms, hear me out: There is nothing wrong with you.

If you are sick, the land is sick. If you are sick, and doctors can’t help you, it is the culture and the doctors that are disabled, not you. The vital flux of your body is a cycle of waxing and waning. You have done nothing wrong. You are living the results of a traumatized culture. You are the sunrise, the sunset. Your state of being is a shifting river. You cannot grasp it, you cannot control it, you cannot push it to hurry up.

Are you trying to heal? Stop, just for two minutes, don’t put any force of will into changing anything. You are not a home improvement project. The self-help and self-improvement cult will not save you. You do not have to work on yourself.

Your body is a fulcrum among billions of people, plants, and animals who are beset by systematic exploitation and extraction.

Are you trying to heal? Stop it. This whole endeavor is not a project to manage, nor is it homework. There is no such thing as health, that imagined perfection is a burden, the weight of hyper-productive consumerist culture. All it takes is a bit of momentum, and suddenly you’re trying to do it all. It’s too much. You’ve sacrificed all leisure at the altar of work.

There’s nothing to grasp, no fixed, solid state to remodel. Your body is not a fractured marble statue in need of restitution.

Are you trying to get better? Why? Who are you trying to please? Who do you think you’ve disappointed by needing care and rest?

If you had to ask the future a question, in its greatest depth, what would you like to know?

Healing is not an end goal, it is a process. It asks of you to remain present to yourself today, practice active hope for what the future may hold, and be ready to accept the changes that your daily actions bring about.

Things will change. It is the nature of reality, time, inertia, and momentum will bring about an evolution in the world. What if it was enough to collaborate in its dynamic unfolding?